General Life Update
I cannot believe we areat the end of May already. I always find the last bank holiday of May difficult since I lost my father around that time 18 years ago...
I have been at my current job for 10 months now and still enjoying it, the expansion of the team and the business overall means things continue to develop and change but in a positive way.
I lost my horse Dixie nearly two months ago now and I miss her very much. It was a unique situation because she did not live in my house so unfortunately I did not see her everyday. Whilst she was the horse I had the longest, she was not the first horse that had passed away and was not the only horse I owned at the time.
We have our other horse Athena although over the past few months she has become difficult to catch and therefore its been hard to form a connection. Then she moved to a much smaller paddock and whilst I felt bad for her because I wanted her to live a close to a natural life as possible with a herd in a large field, clearly it did not help her. Since she has been in the smaller paddock she has been much more receptive to us. The progress is almost too good to be true but she comes over to us when she see's or hears us and follows us around. She seems to be more comfortable in our presence and allows us to be affectionate and shows affection to us in her own way. Her personality has shone through and my icon here shows her goofiness and how loving she can be.
The bereavement and some other hardships (like my partner being out of work) has taken its toll on my mental health. I noticed some small changes such as difficulty sleeping and then getting out of bed in the mornings and struggling to enjoy some of my hobbies/interests also not wanting to face the day.
I did a sensible thing and spoke to my GP and he not only listened and supported me but he provided treatment options and more. So my anti-depressants are going up (this is a good thing) but they will take over 6-7 weeks to kick in. I am also going for blood tests to check if I am Perimenopausal, there are some signs and I think its useful to know. What I was not expecting was to be referred to talking therapies. my partner is actually good at listening and supporting me but maybe talking to someone else is not a bad thing.
I started a website where I have been uploading a blog about my mental health and crocheting which the few people that have seen it seem to like it, sometimes I know exactly what I am going to say on it, other weeks I get last minute inspiration but its good. I do feel like it may help others and I should probably do more to share it, but its only really just starting and sometimes its not just about how many people read it to give it value. If anyone wants to look at it - its here.
crochetforkindness.wixsite.com/crochetforkindness
I have a few days off work this week, which has been overdue. It gives me time to process things, because I feel like its needed and to be kind to myself because I have a habit of putting myself under too much pressure.
I have been at my current job for 10 months now and still enjoying it, the expansion of the team and the business overall means things continue to develop and change but in a positive way.
I lost my horse Dixie nearly two months ago now and I miss her very much. It was a unique situation because she did not live in my house so unfortunately I did not see her everyday. Whilst she was the horse I had the longest, she was not the first horse that had passed away and was not the only horse I owned at the time.
We have our other horse Athena although over the past few months she has become difficult to catch and therefore its been hard to form a connection. Then she moved to a much smaller paddock and whilst I felt bad for her because I wanted her to live a close to a natural life as possible with a herd in a large field, clearly it did not help her. Since she has been in the smaller paddock she has been much more receptive to us. The progress is almost too good to be true but she comes over to us when she see's or hears us and follows us around. She seems to be more comfortable in our presence and allows us to be affectionate and shows affection to us in her own way. Her personality has shone through and my icon here shows her goofiness and how loving she can be.
The bereavement and some other hardships (like my partner being out of work) has taken its toll on my mental health. I noticed some small changes such as difficulty sleeping and then getting out of bed in the mornings and struggling to enjoy some of my hobbies/interests also not wanting to face the day.
I did a sensible thing and spoke to my GP and he not only listened and supported me but he provided treatment options and more. So my anti-depressants are going up (this is a good thing) but they will take over 6-7 weeks to kick in. I am also going for blood tests to check if I am Perimenopausal, there are some signs and I think its useful to know. What I was not expecting was to be referred to talking therapies. my partner is actually good at listening and supporting me but maybe talking to someone else is not a bad thing.
I started a website where I have been uploading a blog about my mental health and crocheting which the few people that have seen it seem to like it, sometimes I know exactly what I am going to say on it, other weeks I get last minute inspiration but its good. I do feel like it may help others and I should probably do more to share it, but its only really just starting and sometimes its not just about how many people read it to give it value. If anyone wants to look at it - its here.
crochetforkindness.wixsite.com/crochetforkindness
I have a few days off work this week, which has been overdue. It gives me time to process things, because I feel like its needed and to be kind to myself because I have a habit of putting myself under too much pressure.
